Because a very kind and lovely anon has sent me this in DM. Hope you don’t mind if I share this with others, anon ♥
This is the first time I got Numero scan in high quality without ugly signature mark sajdgfajhgsdkjfagd ;A;
Who are you anon? Do I know you? Why don’t you let me know who you are so I can worship you!? Thank you so much ♥
The first time when Akimoto Sayaka was standing in front of the camera, her farcical expression was so stiff and she looked like she was about to cry (so much that you would even think someone was bullying her…) But now her facial expression and posing has changed flexibly together with the shutter sound of the camera. “Sayaka-chan has changed so much,” “She has grown up,” staffs said. I want to thank her for learning about posing, fashion trend and make-up. Because she has proved that with efforts, you can even change a lady this much.
Looks like this issue is her last time on this column, and it came with her hand-writing letter:
“Everybody has their own dream, and the paths they choose are also different.
The timing to do that is also different to everybody.
A lot of experiences and encounters have helped me expand my point of view.
And it has changed me.
Up until now, I just desperately did what I had been told to do.
Even if someone asked me for my opinions, I was too afraid of being rejected that I couldn’t say what I really thought…No, now thinking back, it was more like I didn’t think anything at all.
But right now I already know exactly what I want to do. With many people having my back, I can finally make a new decision.
By ‘having my back”, I didn’t mean that they do any specific thing for me, but they have created an environment for Akimoto Sayaka to be true to herself.
I can live true to myself is because I’m surrounded by many wonderful people who keep on supporting me and told me “From now on too, I will always follow you”
And that’s why I can be where I am today.
However… when I made my decision, I was alone.
It’s not like I’m not afraid. It’s not like I don’t feel insecure at all.
But it’s also true that I’m really excited now.
Because this is what I decided by myself so I won’t blame it on anyone.
No matter how it turned out to be like, I will never regret. Because my life is my own responsibility.
I want to try believing in my own ability.
I love how I can finally come to think in such way.
And I will never forget how important and grateful I feel for everybody who has been supporting me.
I hope that my thoughts will reach you through every work I do from now on too.
AKB48 Akimoto Sayaka”